Do-or-Die: Desperate for Change

I can't be the only one who has this feeling. It is like an acute case of the mean reds. I just keep thinking I am too young to be feeling so desperate but, I have felt this way my whole life it seems. Desperate for change, to lose weight, be healthier, figure it all out. I am about to turn 30 this year and here I am still lost in that murky, I have to clue what I am doing with life area. All I know is that I am always itching for change, I want to crawl out of my skin I am so uncomfortable with my body and where I am in life. So, I have decided to write about my journey here. If anything to keep myself accountable to myself for the things that I want. Essentially to give myself the best life I can.  #lifegoals

• Weight Loss. Current Weight: 220 lbs > Goal Weight: 130 lbs
• Saving money because this.  
• More positive and mindful life.

The idea of posting this publicly slightly terrifies me. Please be kind and thank you for reading.